Well done, you managed to lose her. The one woman who was willing to cross oceans for you.

You pushed away the very person who would do almost anything to be with you. She never asked for anything except one reason to stay, proof that you wanted her and that there would be a future for you both. Alas, you failed to provide that and now, she’s gone.

She didn’t care that you weren’t rich or that you didn’t drive a fancy car, all she wanted was to be your lady. She didn’t care that you had flaws because she had flaws of her own. Weeks of spending time together made her fall for you and yet you chose to remain blind to the fact that she chose you regardless of what her friends were saying. All she ever wanted was for you to return the love which she so freely gave to you.

All you had to do was treat her right, which you did. There was no need for diamonds and roses, candlelit dinners and expensive spoils. She was a simple girl with a big heart whose only desire was to be loved and respected. You loved the fact that you didn’t have to put in effort, you loved the fact that she chose you day after day. All she needed was for you to look at her the same way she looked at you. You became comfortable and that was your mistake. You decided to keep the walls you built around your heart up, never letting her in. You chose to keep her at arm’s length when all she did was ask that you let her in.

She gave you the key to her heart and you chose to take it without anything in return.

You loved the fact that she stayed, even when you told her to go. Truth is, you were scared. Too scared to let her in, maybe it was because you felt vulnerable, or maybe it was because you had been hurt before. Even though she showed you time and time again that she was different, you chose to paint her with the same paint brush you used to paint the women of your past.

She made you a priority when all you did was make her one of your options.

When she gave you her hand you took her arm. You prayed upon her weakness for you and you ended up taking her for granted. She stuck by your side during the darkest of days. She remained faithful to the commitment she made to you, you didn’t care though because you never committed to her. Then, one day you told her to go and she decided enough was enough, she decided to leave forever. Without any contact on all fronts.

She stopped answering your calls, she stopped going to the places you used to go to. You lost her when you decided that she wasn’t good enough and you did that by choosing yourself time and again. Your lack of appreciation and gratitude for her became apparent after she realized that she was fighting for your attention. Well done, you managed to make a woman feel the sting of loneliness whilst in your company. The thing is, no woman will ever treat you the way she did.

She was one of a kind and you chose not to see that.

Now that she’s gone, you’ll be looking for her in every other woman you come across, only thing is, you won’t find her. She was unique, not only because of who she was but because of the way she chose to love you through thick and thin.

 

LOVE

An Open, Heartfelt Letter To The Person Who Will Love Me Next

Dear future person who’ll love me next,

Whoever you are and wherever you are, I don’t know how or when our paths are going to cross, but I feel like I have to open my soul and share something with you.

I am not a person who lives a half-assed life.

Unlike most, I am someone who loves fully. Passionately, fiercely and deeply.

So, it won’t be easy, but I swear to you… it will be worth it.

Some have said to me that I’m a difficult person to love, but that is only because my love was too much for those people. Some of them were too afraid to accept my heart when I offered to give them. Some of them were too intimidated by my courage to risk everything in order to be with them.

But, I admit it, those were my mistakes. I went far out on a limb with my feelings. I believed someone would catch me, but the truth was… there was no one out there. So, I fell, and I hurt myself.

And that is why now, I’m guarded. It’s true… I don’t really trust people. It takes time for me to free myself and be exactly who I am in front of others. But, the one thing that has never changed, nor will it ever change, is the fact that I still love truly.

That part of me never died. I know the consequences of wearing my heart as a sleeve. But, I cannot love any other way.

I love deeply. I love hard. I love passionately. I love the right way.

The only thing I need right now is time.

So, please, be patient with me.

It will take some time for me to get to know you, to start trusting you, to undress my soul in front of you and give myself to you, but we will get there. If that is the same thing you want, I promise you, we’ll make it.

Because I want you. I want all of this. I want you and me forever. I want all of our dreams fulfilled. I want us to make it. I want us to experience the love people write books about. I want us to remember the story that we fought hard to be together. Because we deserve this chance. You and I deserve to love and feel loved. We owe it to one another.

The only thing you have to do is to trust me. Show me that I can trust you as well. Show me that I can be myself around you and I will let you explore the depths of my soul. I’ll let you touch those parts of me that I’ve been hiding for ages.

Show me that this is for real, and I will teach you to love your own demons and accept your painful past. Show me that you care, and I will do my very best to make you the happiest person alive.

I am not an easy person to love, but if you’re ready and willing to take this chance, I promise you won’t regret it. Just be there. Love me like you mean it. And, I promise I’ll love you even harder and deeper. I promise I’ll love in ways you never knew possible.

I am not an easy person to love, but if you are sure you want to start this journey together, I promise, your life will never be the same.

LindaStyleDiary – More than just a Picture

I can swear, I can joke
I say what’s on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middle finger to the world
Fuck your ribbons and your pearls
‘Cause I’m not just a pretty girl’
I’m more than just a picture
I’m a daughter and a sister
Sometimes it’s hard for me to show
That I’m more than just a rumour
Or a blog on your computer
There’s more to me than people know
Some days I’m broke, some days I’m rich
Some days I’m nice, some days I can be a bitch
Some days I’m strong, some days I quit
I don’t let it show, but I’ve been through some shit
I’m more than just a number
I’m a hater, I’m a lover
Sometimes it’s hard for me to show
That I’m more than just a title
Or a comment going viral
There’s more to me than people know
Lots of Love,