Waarom De Sterkste Vrouw Zich Vaak Zo Gebroken Voelt Van Binnen

Ze heeft een sterke wil en is een gepassioneerde vrouw die niets haar laat raken.

In haar leven zweeft ze door problemen heen. Liefdesverdriet. Mislukte, dysfunctionele relaties. Teleurstellingen. Fouten.

Maar je zal haar even goed zien lopen met een schitterende lach op het gezicht, alsof er niks gebeurd is.

Ze is de vrouw die je meteen opvrolijkt met haar prachtige glimlach.

Het meisje dat je dag opfleurt en bij wie het lijkt alsof ze een onuitputbare hoeveelheid liefde heeft voor alles om haar heen.

De vrouw die een gigantische last op haar schouders draagt, maar er zorgeloos uitziet.

Mensen kijken naar haar en denken dat ze alles heeft. Ze heeft haar leven op orde. Omdat ze sterk en succesvol is.

Maar ze weten niet dat ze heeft besloten om juist dat aan de wereld te laten zien. 

Ja, het lijkt alsof ze een hart van steen heeft en een ik-kan-het aanpak, maar dat is juist de kant die anderen mogen zien van haar.

Ze lijkt onbreekbaar, maar niemand weet hoe ze zich echt voelt.

En niemand zou ooit de pijn die zij voelt kunnen verdragen.

Ze zien haar gedurende de dag, die mooie lach vol belofte bekleedt haar gezicht alleen als ze de energie heeft om te doen alsof.

Maar niemand weet hoe ze eruitziet en hoe ze zich in de late avond voelt na een lange dag zich sterk te hebben opgesteld, dan ligt ze eindelijk op bed en dan beginnen de nachtmerries.

Omdat ze zichzelf nooit laat betrappen op enige kwetsbaarheid.

Ze zal er altijd zijn om je op te fleuren als je je verdrietig voelt, maar als ze de neiging heeft om het uit te schreeuwen, slikt ze nog een keer totdat ze zich kan terugtrekken en in eenzaamheid haar pijn eruit gooit.

Wanneer de wereld te hard is voor haar en ze op het punt staat in elkaar te storten, pakt ze dit eigenhandig aan.

Ze lijdt liever alleen. Omdat ze te bang is om haar tekortkomingen te laten zien aan de wrede, smerige wereld.

Ze is te bang om haar ziel bloot te leggen en deze aan anderen te onthullen.

Mensen omschrijven haar als de meest luide en vrolijke meid. Ze zien haar als een zonnestraaltje. Degene die bruist van leven. De ultieme probleemoplosser. Ze komen altijd naar haar toe, smeken haar om goed advies zodat ze hun problemen kunnen oplossen.

Omdat ze altijd degene is die weet wat ze moet doen.

Ze verwachten dat ze altijd alles op een rijtje heeft. Omdat niets in het leven haar kan breken.

En ze knikt alleen en biedt de veelgevraagde troost aan voor al hun first world problems, ook al wil ze haar longen kapot schreeuwen en ze zeggen dat ze geen flauw benul hebben hoe echte problemen eruitzien.

Maar ze houdt zich in en ze luistert. Ze toont begrip, en ze probeert een goede vriend te zijn.

Tenslotte zegt ze tegen haarzelf: “Geen van mijn problemen zouden hun zaak moeten zijn”.

En zodra ze thuiskomt, komen al haar onzekerheden, angsten en innerlijke spoken van stal om haar te kwellen.

Hoewel ze liever alleen gelaten wil worden, haat ze die zwaarmoedige, nachtelijke uurtjes. Want dan vallen ze aan.

Hoewel het lijkt alsof haar pantser onverwoestbaar is, halen haar schadelijke emoties haar neer en verwoesten ze haar.

Haar onzekerheden bemoeien zich met haar zelfverzekerdheid, haar angsten maken een eind aan het laatste greintje hoop om het geluk te vinden en haar spoken zorgen ervoor dat ze zich waardeloos voelt. Nutteloos. Een nul.

Maar wat ze zich niet beseft is dat ze zeker sterk is. Ze is krachtig. En ze is verdomme ontzettend moedig!

Ze heeft het moeilijk, maar ze besluit iedere dag om gewoon door te gaan. Ondanks het verdriet. Ondanks het intense hartzeer.

Na alles vindt ze nog een manier om weer op te staan ‘s ochtends, om het laatste sprankje hoop te vinden en door de pijn heen te glimlachen.

Ze is sterk omdat ze heeft weten te overleven in deze wrede wereld en ze nog steeds staat. 

En dat vraagt ontzettend veel moed.

#denkpositief

Well done, you managed to lose her. The one woman who was willing to cross oceans for you.

You pushed away the very person who would do almost anything to be with you. She never asked for anything except one reason to stay, proof that you wanted her and that there would be a future for you both. Alas, you failed to provide that and now, she’s gone.

She didn’t care that you weren’t rich or that you didn’t drive a fancy car, all she wanted was to be your lady. She didn’t care that you had flaws because she had flaws of her own. Weeks of spending time together made her fall for you and yet you chose to remain blind to the fact that she chose you regardless of what her friends were saying. All she ever wanted was for you to return the love which she so freely gave to you.

All you had to do was treat her right, which you did. There was no need for diamonds and roses, candlelit dinners and expensive spoils. She was a simple girl with a big heart whose only desire was to be loved and respected. You loved the fact that you didn’t have to put in effort, you loved the fact that she chose you day after day. All she needed was for you to look at her the same way she looked at you. You became comfortable and that was your mistake. You decided to keep the walls you built around your heart up, never letting her in. You chose to keep her at arm’s length when all she did was ask that you let her in.

She gave you the key to her heart and you chose to take it without anything in return.

You loved the fact that she stayed, even when you told her to go. Truth is, you were scared. Too scared to let her in, maybe it was because you felt vulnerable, or maybe it was because you had been hurt before. Even though she showed you time and time again that she was different, you chose to paint her with the same paint brush you used to paint the women of your past.

She made you a priority when all you did was make her one of your options.

When she gave you her hand you took her arm. You prayed upon her weakness for you and you ended up taking her for granted. She stuck by your side during the darkest of days. She remained faithful to the commitment she made to you, you didn’t care though because you never committed to her. Then, one day you told her to go and she decided enough was enough, she decided to leave forever. Without any contact on all fronts.

She stopped answering your calls, she stopped going to the places you used to go to. You lost her when you decided that she wasn’t good enough and you did that by choosing yourself time and again. Your lack of appreciation and gratitude for her became apparent after she realized that she was fighting for your attention. Well done, you managed to make a woman feel the sting of loneliness whilst in your company. The thing is, no woman will ever treat you the way she did.

She was one of a kind and you chose not to see that.

Now that she’s gone, you’ll be looking for her in every other woman you come across, only thing is, you won’t find her. She was unique, not only because of who she was but because of the way she chose to love you through thick and thin.

 

LOVE

An Open, Heartfelt Letter To The Person Who Will Love Me Next

Dear future person who’ll love me next,

Whoever you are and wherever you are, I don’t know how or when our paths are going to cross, but I feel like I have to open my soul and share something with you.

I am not a person who lives a half-assed life.

Unlike most, I am someone who loves fully. Passionately, fiercely and deeply.

So, it won’t be easy, but I swear to you… it will be worth it.

Some have said to me that I’m a difficult person to love, but that is only because my love was too much for those people. Some of them were too afraid to accept my heart when I offered to give them. Some of them were too intimidated by my courage to risk everything in order to be with them.

But, I admit it, those were my mistakes. I went far out on a limb with my feelings. I believed someone would catch me, but the truth was… there was no one out there. So, I fell, and I hurt myself.

And that is why now, I’m guarded. It’s true… I don’t really trust people. It takes time for me to free myself and be exactly who I am in front of others. But, the one thing that has never changed, nor will it ever change, is the fact that I still love truly.

That part of me never died. I know the consequences of wearing my heart as a sleeve. But, I cannot love any other way.

I love deeply. I love hard. I love passionately. I love the right way.

The only thing I need right now is time.

So, please, be patient with me.

It will take some time for me to get to know you, to start trusting you, to undress my soul in front of you and give myself to you, but we will get there. If that is the same thing you want, I promise you, we’ll make it.

Because I want you. I want all of this. I want you and me forever. I want all of our dreams fulfilled. I want us to make it. I want us to experience the love people write books about. I want us to remember the story that we fought hard to be together. Because we deserve this chance. You and I deserve to love and feel loved. We owe it to one another.

The only thing you have to do is to trust me. Show me that I can trust you as well. Show me that I can be myself around you and I will let you explore the depths of my soul. I’ll let you touch those parts of me that I’ve been hiding for ages.

Show me that this is for real, and I will teach you to love your own demons and accept your painful past. Show me that you care, and I will do my very best to make you the happiest person alive.

I am not an easy person to love, but if you’re ready and willing to take this chance, I promise you won’t regret it. Just be there. Love me like you mean it. And, I promise I’ll love you even harder and deeper. I promise I’ll love in ways you never knew possible.

I am not an easy person to love, but if you are sure you want to start this journey together, I promise, your life will never be the same.

My Regret Isn’t That I Loved You, It’s That I Forgot To Love Myself

I won’t deny that I was madly and deeply in love with you. Being with you was the most passionate romance of my life. I was completely enamored with you, captivated by how wonderful I believed that you were. If I had known then how blind I really was, maybe I would have saved myself so much heartache.

I don’t have many regrets about our relationship, and I certainly don’t regret us being together. There is, however, one thing I wish I could have changed. My regret isn’t that I loved you, it’s that I forgot to love myself when I was with you.

Finding You Wasn’t a Mistake
Honestly, I’m glad I met you. Despite how things turned out, I have so many happy memories from our time together. The universe has a plan for us all and I know that you came into my life for a reason.

What was a mistake though, was the way that meeting you changed me.
I let myself become consumed with you.
In my mind, you were the most amazing person that I’d ever met. Because of that, I gave myself entirely to you. I centered my whole life around yours just because of the sparks that I felt when we first met.

Choosing You Wasn’t a Mistake
I followed my heart when it came to you and I will never regret that. When my heart told me that you were the one for me, I listened. Listening to my instinct is not something that I will ever apologize for, even if my instinct was wrong.

Despite that, I did mess up in one way. Yes, I chose you as the person that I wanted to be with, but it didn’t end there. I chose you over me. Instead of remembering to look after myself as well as having you around, all I thought about was you.
I let my own needs go unfulfilled just because I wanted you.

Thank you for not having contact because now I realize how much I still love you by loving myself.

Lots of Love

Linda

LindaStyleDiary – Por Arriesgarnos

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Por arriesgarlo todo amor
Por liberarnos y crecer
Por aventarnos y volar
Por eso y este gran amor
Y tú eres una bendición

Por todo lo que es mi verdad
Y porque ahora somos dos
Las almas se pueden juntar
Y los espiritus bailar, jugando a nuestro alrededor

Amemonos despacio sin excusas
Que tú y yo quisimos, ven detras de mí
No queda nada mas que amarte
Y si en todo apareces tu, no queda nada mas que amarte
Nada más que amarte

Amemonos despacio sin excusas
Que tu y yo quisimos, ven detras de mí
El alma estalla en mil pedazos si tú estás conmigo
Amemonos

Y de tu mano aprenderé
Que mis sentidos sean tu voz
A darte fuerza y no caer
A que mi hogar sea tu piel
Ya que tu vida es mi razón

Por intentarlo todo amor
Por liberarnos

 

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Lots of Love,

Linda

 

LindaStyleDiary – More than just a Picture

I can swear, I can joke
I say what’s on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middle finger to the world
Fuck your ribbons and your pearls
‘Cause I’m not just a pretty girl’
I’m more than just a picture
I’m a daughter and a sister
Sometimes it’s hard for me to show
That I’m more than just a rumour
Or a blog on your computer
There’s more to me than people know
Some days I’m broke, some days I’m rich
Some days I’m nice, some days I can be a bitch
Some days I’m strong, some days I quit
I don’t let it show, but I’ve been through some shit
I’m more than just a number
I’m a hater, I’m a lover
Sometimes it’s hard for me to show
That I’m more than just a title
Or a comment going viral
There’s more to me than people know
Lots of Love,

LindaStyleDiary’s GIVE-A-WAY!

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GIVEAWAY TIME!

Lieve volgers,

 Jullie kunnen een L’Oréal Professionel Pakket winnen t.w.v. € 100,00!!

Mijn favo kapper doet wederom mee aan de L’Oréal Professionnel Color Contest 2017!
Zij hebben deze prijs al eens eerder gewonnen in 2011!

Wat zou het toch fantastisch zijn als ze dit weer gaan winnen?!

Wat moet je doen om het pakket te winnen?

Stem op Remaiko’s Haircompany via de onderstaande link en wie weet ben jij straks de gelukkige van het mooie L’Oréal Professionel pakket!

https://www.lpcolorcontest.nl/finalisten.php?&bbbx_592788

Laat in een comment op mijn Instagram foto weten dat je gestemd hebt!

 

Lots of Love,
LindaStyleDiary

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GIVEAWAY TIME!

Dear followers,

This is your chance to win a L’Oréal Professional Package, ie € 100,00

My favo hairdresser participates the L’Oréal Professional Color Contest 2017!
They have won this price already in 2011!

Wouldn’t it be great that they win again?


What do you have to do to win this package?

Vote for Remaiko’s Haircompany via the mentioned link below and who knows you are the lucky one to receive this beautiful L’Oréal Professional package!

https://www.lpcolorcontest.nl/finalisten.php?&bbbx_592788

Let me know in a comment on my Instagram pic that you voted!

 

Lots of Love,
LindaStyleDiary

 

LindaStyleDiary loves BeautyLash

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As you probably know, I am not a huge fan of fake stuff regarding beauty. I don’t have gel nails, no extensions, no fake lashes etc. etc. but of course, I like to take care of myself and using good shampoo, good moisturiser, good make-up etc.
I am not colouring my eyebrows or lashes because my lashes are black and my eyebrows have a good colour mixing with my hair, because blond hair with truly black eyebrows doesn’t really look good right?

 

So this time I had the change to try Beautylash, it’s a yourself colour kit for your eyebrows and lashes.
Gosh, I was nervous!

 

BeautyLash is produced by the Austrian corporation GWCosmetics, a company full of tradition that has been producing hair tints and hair cosmetics of high quality for over 80 years.

For over 50 years our eyelash- and eyebrow tints have been successful worldwide and have become the international standard for professional tinting and care. The unique effect of RefectoCil has made the product a success internationally – in over 65 countries – and the brand has become the leading brand for eyelash and eyebrow tinting worldwide.

Trend scouting, state of the art formulas, and a creative research and development team are the pillars of the “Private Label Production” of GW Cosmetics. As a full service partner we offer everything from concept realisation to product development to packaging design and marketing support, and we can generate innovative product solutions for your target group. GW Cosmetics is testified as a reliable, competent and dedicated full-service partner for years.

Master Lin, GW Cosmetics’ luxury cosmetics line, is a range of natural cosmetics based on the principles of Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM). High quality ingredients like Fine GoldPearl, and hand-picked herbs create harmony between inner well being and outer appearance.

All GW Cosmetics products are produced according to the quality standards of “Good Manufacturing Practice”, GMP.

 

And there we go, like I told you before I was really nervous because I am not really a make-up or hair artist, not styling my hair of doing my make-up in hours… no I am a girl how quicker the better.
So that’s why I was a little nervous, but after all, it was quick and easy! There were two instructors to help us, so that was a great help. I told them… OK I don’t want to have the black colour please…. But she told me that would be very nice! So I did a mix, between middle brown and black!

But next time I will just choose middle brown because I am not really a big fan of blond hair and dark eyebrows.

A before and after pic.

 

It’s was really nice to do this test and I am really happy, so girls, don’t spend so much money on this at a beauty salon, you can do this by yourself with BeautyLash!

Shop the products here! 

Lots of Love,

Linda

 

 

 

 

LindaStyleDiary at 7th Sunday Festival

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Sunday, what to do on Sundays? That’s always my question. But during summer time there are plenty things to do. But last Sunday I had nothing planned, just go for an ice-cream with my little niece Rosa.

Waking up, everything very slow… coffee, breakfast etc. etc. Around 11:00 o’clock my lovely friend Anouk sent me a message, if I had any plans for today. No sweetie, not really. Do you want to join us at 7th Sunday Festival with My Jewellery? OK, sound great but most people know that I am not really a big fan of last minute plans… thinking thinking….. Sound perfect to me but at what time do you need to be there? She told me half past one. Oooohh noooo, already 11:30 and it’s a one-hour drive, I wasn’t home at the moment, that’s not good for my brain. LOL

AND OF COURSE, WHAT TO WEAR?
Unfortunately, I didn’t have the time to change my outfit as I wasn’t home.
But after all, my outfit was good

Called my father and asked for his car, my FIAT 500 is fine but his car is driving for free! So to my parent’s place, didn’t change my outfit because I didn’t have the time for it. Pick up the car and started my road trip to 7th Sunday Festival (near Veghel)
Did leave a little bit late so I had to drive very fast! Whoop Whoop!

Called my friend Anouk and we arrived at the same time at the parking spot of 7th Sunday. Great timing babe! Just a few minutes in advance some of the group from My Jewellery arrived already so we met them there.

Time to go to the VIP area! The team of My Jewellery was almost complete and we started with champagne! Great spot, nice view, nice music and of course NICE PEOPLE!

Just a little reminder for your guys, if you are still looking for a festival outfit, have a look at the My Jewellery webshop. You find amazing outfits and of course the festival essentials!
www.my-jewellery.com

Champagne, wine, snacks and a lot of fun makes us dancing on the tables! We stayed for a while on the VIP deck but after that we went downstairs to explore the festival! It was just like a small village! I had a lot of fun!

Thanks Anouk & My Jewellery for this lovely and sunny Sunday! And girls… don’t forget to shop your outfit at My Jewellery because this Saturday it’s time for Boothstock!

Lots of Love,

LindaStyleDiary

www.7thsunday.nl

LindaStyleDiary at LakeDance Festival

Oh yes, it’s that time of the year again and I received a stunning invitation from
My-Jewellery

2 VIP tickets for LakeDance!

It was quite tough for me to choose the outfit. Because on a festival you need to wear some summer outfits. Unfortunately, I am not living in Spain anymore but in The Netherlands. Which can be quite difficult, because it can be cold, windy, rainy etc.
And don’t forget, during the week the temperature is amazing and during the weekends it’s cold and rainy!

But it doesn’t really matter this time because I was rockin’ this festival in the Flower Bow Dress from MyJewellery!  To make my outfit complete I chose for the Multicolor Ibiza Bag, the Summer Love Hat and some nice bracelets and necklaces.

Shop the items here:

Flower Bow Dress
Multicolor Ibiza Bag
Summer Love Hat

After all I chose for my Sendra boots because these boots are perfect for festivals, because they are handmade and leather boots, so it will always stay good.

Another outfit during the evening because the temperature was going down.
I chose for a blouse with the Striped Pantalon Black and my Isabel Marant Bart sneakers.

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This was so much fun because the weather was truly amazing (I mean, without rain)
Thank you so much MyJewellery and LakeDance for this amazing day!

PS; I stayed until the end of the festival, so it was a GOOD ONE!

Lots of Love,

LindaStyleDiary